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calendar Jun. 7th, 2004 @ 10:26 am
Hey this is my calendar for the rest of the summer. I'll be adding crap that comes up so if you want something like your birthday put in here then tell me!!

http://calendar.yahoo.com/freemind0821

Never felt so alone Jun. 2nd, 2004 @ 07:38 pm
I'm sick of being single. What's wrong with me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I mean I've never felt so alone and I have it. I miss being held and kissed and wlel EVERYTHING! I can't stand it anymore. *Sorry so short, everything else is in my other journal*
current attitude: lonelylonely
current noise: Chop Suey-System of a Down

By the way... Jun. 1st, 2004 @ 07:50 pm
I've got a new journal and it's only for my friends to view so yeah tell me if you want to view it and I'll put you on! My username is Deredian by the way.

Tell me someone, WHAT SHOULD I DO! Jun. 1st, 2004 @ 06:15 pm
I'm really friggin confused now. Two guys like me and I like them to but I don't know which guy I want to be with. It's Josh and Matt.

-Josh-
I can relate to him.
He's not afraid to tell me how he feels.
He's very sweet.
Very understanding.
I mean we spent 3 hours talking to eachother today. He told me a lot about himself.

-Matt-
I can relate to him also.
He won't tell me a damn thing about what he's thinking or how he feels.
He can be sweet. *when he wants to*
He can be understanding. *when he wants to*
We talk a lot but only online and even then it's so hard to talk to him.

I like both of them and they've both said that they like me but I have no idea what to do!!
current attitude: contemplativevery very confused!

My turn to fuck up May. 31st, 2004 @ 05:52 pm
Seems like I've fucked up all day. Lemme list everything:

1.) I pissed Corey off completely.

2.) *good thing* I got to see Jessica.

3.) Jaime's mad at me for talking to Mike but I was just being my messenger self.

4.) My dad thinks I'm a Devil Worshiper.

5.) I've got some bitch on my tail from colorguard.

6.) That bitch thinks she's gonna kick my ass.

7.) That bitch is to much of a fucking wuss to threaten me herself so she has to send her friends to do it.

8.) That bitch WON'T STAY OUT OF MY FUCKING LIFE AND MIND HER OWN FUCKING BUISNESS!

So yeah that pretty much sums most of it up. I relaly don't know how much of this I can take. I just want out!
current attitude: bitchybitchy
current noise: Aerials-System of a Down

More to come... May. 30th, 2004 @ 07:56 pm
I'm doing what Katz and Apala did lol!

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Ok I'm done lol!!
current attitude: boredbored
current noise: the sound of my voice

Yet again, like the new look? May. 30th, 2004 @ 11:46 am
Yeah I've been messing around with my journal's look again and I really like this look so I think I'm gonna keep it awhile.

Apala has been helping with a bunch of stuff but I'm not going to say anything about it. If you think your important enough to know and/or if you really need to know then IM me and ask. Thank you hun!!!!

I didn't make captain either. The three seniors did. Oh well no big whoop. We're going to revolt against them no doubt, espiclaly Megan R. Deanna is the best choice, Hiedi is the 2nd best, but Megan HELL NO!

I had a talk with matt last night and that didn't go to well. All I know is that he said he liked me and that's it. He said that he anwsered all my question, i.e. how he feels about me, if he wants to go out with me, that stuff. But I think if he anwsered me I'm pretty sure that I would remember it all! Not to mention another guy has said that if things didn't work out between me and Matt that he wouldn't mind having a chance. You know who you are.

School's finally out thank god and I have more time then I've ever had for a LONG time!! I mean I sat on my ass all day yesterday and did nothing, IT WAS GREAT!!! That and I have time to write!!! *does a happy dance* Well gotta go, have a good day!

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*well I am an aquarius*

Sheesh, she had a lot of those!!!
current attitude: boredbored as heck!
current noise: Going Under-Evanescene

What to do? May. 27th, 2004 @ 07:42 pm
I've been asking myself that question all day long, what to do? Apprently Kaitlin Boatwright decided to butt her ugly nose into my buisness and say that the cut on my wrist I did myself. Maybe I did, maybe I didn't. I don't tell her jack squat because I don't trust her anymore and usually when someone tells you that you should stop lying to their faces. Oh no, not her. She keeps on lying and it's hilarious because sooner or later she's not going to have any friends and I'm gonna point and laugh when it happens.

Oh yeah we had a stupid meeting for our Hawaii trip. I'm excited about it!! It sucks that Matt isn't going to be there. And Josh and I got eachother's screenames. Silly rabbit lol. But yeah, he's a really great guy. The things he said to me, wow. I felt really loved.

Yet another night of me spilling my heart out to Matt. I told him all the stuff that's been going on so on and so forth. And I told him that the choice I want to take was to be with him but I didn't know if he wanted to be with me. I didn't mention him directly. He replied that yeah that was a problem. Then I asked him if he knew who it was. He said no. I said "Think about it. After all the choices I listed who is the obvious choice." A few seconds later he said that I was talking about him. I'm so confused. I really like Matt a lot but I don't know what he thinks about all this. I just want some information from him is that so much to ask? What do I do?
current attitude: confusedconfused

Much better May. 23rd, 2004 @ 05:23 pm
Well things are much better now. Matt and I had a talk last night and turns out that he does like me. I told him to think about wether he actually wanted to go out with me or not. I hope he says yes to that to. He's been out paintballing all day so I couldn't talk to him.

I got my schedule for next year to.
Schedule for next year:
Fall Semester 1:
german
math *Castator*
dance
astronomy

Fall Semester 2:
german
math
gym *Peden*
astronomy

Spring Semester 3 & 4:
concert band
english *Moden*
adv. theatre
world history *Stinson*

Hoepfully all that will go well! Well no more jazz, four more days left, and then hell begins. With the way things are going for colorguard people are getting kicked out for breathing. God I hope I don't get kicked out. Matt says he's glad he's not in it anymore. He's kinda lucky he isn't. Oh well, if I make captain which I doubt I will then my only job is to rat out anyone who screws up. Oh yeah I dropped my sabre on my toe and I think I broke it lol. Smart move on my part.
current attitude: hothot
current noise: sound of the storm outside

My song May. 22nd, 2004 @ 06:48 am
Does anybody care?
Does anybody know?
Do you want to know?
Do you need to know?

If I cut myself tonight,
If I bled myself tonight,
Would you care?
Would you even try to stop me?

Does anybody care?
Does anybody know?
Do you want to know?
Do you need to know?

No one knows what I live with
I have nothing to call my own
Nothing aboslutly nothing!
I have no one to love or be loved!

Does anybody care?
Does anybody know?
Do you want to know?
Do you need to know?

*A couple nights ago I told the truth to someone. He said why did you do that, you have your whole life ahead of you?! I told him no I don't. I don't want my life to go on anymore. I feel abandoned, thrown into an alley. I've got no one to care for and no one to care for me. What's the point.*
current attitude: lonelylonely
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